13 months happiness

long time no see, mr Penguin Nana =)

yday is our 13 months happiness, day 394

is not really much...

but we faced a lot of things together =)

ignore the sadness

remember the happiness <3

long time no see penguin nana

long time no hug

miss everything with you =)

thx for ur surprise skype call last night ^^

and we long time no skype

finally ><

thx a lot my boy ^^

love u u ...and miss you =*

muaksssss ^.^

ALL THE BEST FOR OUR FUTURE
FIGHT FOR IT ..
AND ENJOY IT TOGETHER IN FUTURE ^^

open school

今天才开学第二天
自己已经哭的整个猫样

不是不要控制
不是不要坚强
不是不要想好方面想

而是。。
我真的做不到

一切根本如我想象不一样
所以才没有100%的马上适应

我很想念我家人，我的狗还有penguin..

我很有冲动马上跑回去抱着他们
真的真的很想念...
那种心情真的很酸很痛，
很难呼吸

我真的不是出国读书的料
困在一个小房间半天
真的会疯掉

明天class cancel
比起以前是一件非常开心的事情
可是现在，真的哭笑不得

明天该怎么度过？

真的很需要一个拥抱。。。。

NEW LIFE

超级久没来这里的感觉heheee

真的不知不觉变回了属于自己的日记...

最近都不错

忽略我们偶尔的战争

其实过得还蛮开心和幸福+快乐^^

这傻瓜总是会做些让人又气又爱的东西

讲些又气又废的东西

其实就是喜欢你的幽默才在最后选择你啊

麻烦你保持你的幽默

别让我再觉得是受骗 haha XD

我们的情人节很平常

很普通

就像平时那样咯

出去玩^^

那天可是我们第一天拍"大头贴" ^^

我很喜欢的玩意儿 <3

（aiyaaa, 没放到上来heheee）

but 已经在insta了^^

还有一天，我就开学了

过后就真的很少见面了。。。

很少拥抱

很少一起讲废话了

也是一个大考验

挨过，我相信我们应该会更珍惜彼此的^^

很多话想说的原本

可是怎么打着blog的过程中

脑却突然空白了？

当然我也希望这是我最后的大学

一定要顺利毕业！！

还有你！！！

麻烦你快点找到自己的方向XD

别迷失太久啊！

记得！我永远挺你就是了=)

support you forever <3

Hug Hug tight tight ^^

会过去的

会挨过的

会毕业的

一切会顺利的

! 加油 !

!! ALL THE BEST !!

BeSTRONG

我要坚强起来！
不应该那么小鸟依人

以前是以前
现在是现在

以前宠我，
让我依赖后
就这样

我懂我烦
我也害怕你嫌我烦

但为什么就是那么犯贱
那么在乎在意

坚强吧
坚强坚强坚强
坚强坚强
坚强
坚强
坚强坚强坚强坚强坚强
坚强坚强坚强坚强
坚强坚强
坚强坚强坚强
坚强坚强
坚强
坚强坚强坚强坚强坚强坚强坚强
坚强！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

小希望......

心情啃着啃着的,
我知道这个“心事”不能再在你耳边诉
所以我来到了这个小日记

曾几何时，我们的小日记变成我一个人在写？
也不知道这个小日记，
你多久没打开？

其实我真的很后悔当初38玩你电脑
破坏了你给我准备的这个blog的惊喜
我也假设，如果那天不是无意间看到
你至今到底写了多少属于我们的故事？<3

你啊！真是个大傻瓜
让我这傻婆对你又爱又恨~

每次跟朋友gathering，真的可以投入到不碰手机
大傻瓜，不知道你有没有上厕所
想我的时候，有没有乖乖去喝水
还是大头虾，手机charging，懒惰去拿而已？

叫你enjoy，真的enjoy到好投入我的大笨蛋
叫你不用理我，还真的听话的没有理我到底在想什么
真的是大笨蛋啊你！ 1996 tight tight.......

我说过，
我并没有要你无时无刻的找我
并没有要你set alarm给我发短讯
更没有不让你和朋友畅快的gathering

我要的只是久久的一句你想对我说的话
那久久可以15分钟，可以半小时，甚至1小时
只要看得出“心”，
讲真的，我已经很温暖。。

坦白说，我刚刚真的没有抱很大希望能看到我想要看的
因为我知道你不会~

即使这样，我还是控制不到的一直跑上来
就为了偷瞄有没有“Ee Yoong Angel”的信息
或tag我照片或miss call 还是什么的...

过后，我不想再失望的走回下去
就很辛苦的忍到真的上去准备睡觉的时候，
才上去看

好吧~有一个“6463 m”
哈哈... 连问好也可以没时间的乱按到m ><
1996 tight tight.....
但总好过完全没有吧~~~~

过后回你后，
你那迟迟不回的情况来了
在我等待你的信息的时候
这个大笨蛋在做什么？><
在enjoying吧？ ....

Dada 打瞌睡的时候，
Nana 在哈哈的玩吗？
Dada0103 的时候，
Nana的心和Dada一样吗？

虽然我从早重复的提醒说
今天是我们的#11，
可是......

糟糕~~~
怎么连打日记压力也大了？><
好怕某天你突然又打开了这blog
你看了这一些东西，
我们又吵.......

虽然心很痛
很多话想说
但我真的不会表达~
甚至害怕你误解

skip吧........................................

我希望，
某一天Nana 可以知道我的心情
明白我心情
体会我的心情

可能你不理解为什么我会这样
可能你会不爽
可能你有你自己的想法

但我的总结还是那一些
好想感受，即使你和朋友一起玩
但你对我的思念，挂念没停止过

不奢侈每分每秒的信息
想要的只是你的那颗心

希望你投入，
但不是完全投入

希望你开心，
但不是100%的开心，因为一些在想念的心

。。。。。
不知道还可以怎么表达
就这样吧..................
1996 tight tight ...

3rd day of year 2016..

3rd of January, 3-1-2016

又是一个最美丽的第三天啦XD
今年的生日，是我第一次有男朋友的生日
那种感觉和期待多多的哈哈
很多特别的感受，但却真的形容不到的感受

I mean 其实每一次的第一次都有这感觉
可能以前都一直等待又想象多多的吧呵呵

但有所保留的是，
我们都还在读大学，而且还没有经济能力
所以也不奢侈太多^^

哈哈 直接进故事
今年真的很惊喜，
傻瓜聪明了，2号晚上已经在我家外等12点^^
而这次真的计划很成功
没被我发现

说说去年，被我发现之外
还超时哈哈 呵呵 <3

原本要mask了，
你差一步都不行><
bii，我真的很开心^^
但很可惜没在外面拍照TT

这一刻，我觉得很幸福^^

heheee bii，明年... 每一年的生日都有吗?
不能偷懒啊!!! 哈哈
love u u <3
其实都1515... 但却不是很舒服的...
1996 tight tight..

过后，下午bii 来我家载我去pav =)
看了套我很想看的戏和吃了我很想吃的coco ^^

结果问了bii一个很尴尬的问题...
其实我真的只是好奇啦，希望你别介意
(我们的出钱那里)

每次谈到钱，或吃什么时，
都很大压力.....
我们几时才可以有就业机会来足够养自己呢? hmmmm
1996 tight tight =)
我们一起努力吧 ^^

过后bii 今年送的礼物
可惜没亲手给我戴上TT

傻瓜，谢谢你^^
虽然我说过，我不大喜欢闪闪的东西
但你送的，我却有另外一种的看法hehee
love u u <3

其实我有很多感受
但却真的败在表达
还是根本就不能形容的啊? 哈><

就这样.. 给个句号。 
<3

ps：糟糕，全程把ah thung给忘了哈哈
我们的未来driver兼奶爸 XD

2016 1st day......

New Year Eve.. (31-12-2015)
so happy that babe morning accompany me till evening
and morning 1 "sad misunderstood story" END ..

we did so many things ..
feel so happy and so much love.. and 1515....

maybe this moment...
my mood is moody... depressed..
i cant write any happy things right now =(
my heart really pain...

why??????
Christmas Eve.. Christmas...
2015 is a sad day...

but why New Year Eve night and New Year
remain the same ????

我说过，今年很不一样
因为我第一次有男朋友陪我庆祝这些热闹的日子
可是我真的没想到我的这2个日子，
第一次得那么刻骨铭心

为什么？
明明很开心...
为什么要突然抛个问题出来
自己却消失...
出现后，告诉我你已经忘记了
叫我也忘记...
最后还发我脾气............

我很乱，很辛苦
我又做错了什么？
我真的很后悔skype！！
真的很后悔~
我没去拿那个用不到的wifi
就不会想到硬要skype
就为了分享我眼前的浪漫，
希望我们能够一起看

就因为这样，
线不好，蒙
误会产生了~

我在别人家，我也不管了
一直问你，你不说
send你，你不说
直到send不到，失去联络
那些时间真的真的很难熬
真的真的很辛苦
很想1996
很想你马上出现

为什么？？？？？
为什么这个blog明明是想记载我们的回忆
慢慢变成伤

为什么我们会这样？
才第一天
我的第一次

我的第二次会怎样？
不想有一样的故事

我只想要我们坦坦诚诚，幸幸福福的一辈子

为什么？？？/////////??????????????

我们的第一个跨年........

FINALLY (long time no see)

hahaaa, actually i want put some photos..
but fail TT
(ps: just now in IMU typing halfway, now going to continue ^^)

today so happy, so special.......

morning not feeling well, then when i get into car,
babe had prepared 1 hot milo to me..
its very warm <3

then we ate spicy panmee
then go IMU pay the shit fees =(
sad just skip ...........

went back his home..
then i gave him the souvenir i prepared for him and his sis <3
yeahhh he is happy ^^

then a special afternoon..
"A&L" the first time ......
its weird but feeling different?
1996 tight tight.. hope you really treasure everything and FOREVER with me ...

then we go to carefour for lunch and see the sport fair..

yeahhh i brought a bag ^^ =)

ohyaaa.. so sad.. i told a secret to my boy =(

haizzz no surprise liao lo TT

have to plan again for ur birthday TT

but im willing to do it =)

then we go to buy ice-cream =P

and we brought a pair of necklace <3 "A"

tonite bball with babe's friends ^^

after dinner.. game start <3

babe so handsome wowwwww <3

lengzai niaaaaaaaaaaa

venue: IMU xD

around 10 something pm.. 

then babe and his friend- Ah Thung sent me back TT

0103 and 1515 =(

a very happy day ^^ hope have another chance to play together

(ps: finally finish this post, its happen on 28th Dec)

and until today 30th Dec only finish ....

and today not a happy night.....

thats why.. i have no mood to finish it .....

1996 tight tight..

2015's Christmas ...

今年本来是一个不一样的圣诞节
因为今年是我19年以来，
第一次有男朋友的圣诞节

但，妈妈却book了我去日本
后来你说你家人也book了你去AUS

其实那时很落寞
因为不能一起庆祝。。

后来我想到一个很浪漫的东西
就是我在日本买你的圣诞礼物
你在AUS买我的圣诞礼物
当我们回国的时候交换~
当然，平安夜我们就skype着倒数

这plan就这样半年有多
也到了，发生了

很多东西真的不是自己想象的完美
真的很讨厌自己为何总爱想象来伤害自己

事实很大变化
我们不但没去过任何shopping central看decoration，拍照

而且重点，你没去到AUS，因为你有考试和很多Assignment
平安夜那晚，不但skype不到，连想晚上一起whatsApp也不行
最伤心的是，病了
真的很辛苦... 很0145...
而在很够力suffer的晚上，
你陪你朋友enjoy

我明白你们很久没gathering
我一切都体谅，谅解
可是.... 我真的很0145.. 很无助

我叫你enjoy还是什么
坦白说，有时真的只是气话
好想你能用另一个角度去看我的内容
可是没想到都是反效果
果然是个傻瓜
叫你时时刻刻，还是想我时找我又不见你那么听话呵呵

知道我们的第一次圣诞节一定没什么特别
甚至是伤心

我却跑去想象，你会不会来机场给我surprise？
想想想，流泪了~
因为投入了，到1996 那part...
因为我这几天真的很suffer，很辛苦
睡不到，却很累很累
一直要呕，却很难呕出来
真的很0145... 很需要1996......

到了msia，开电话，我以为你会着急为什么我的机那么迟landing
迟了整30mins....
其实那30mins，很害怕的
下很大很大雨，飞机下不到
里面时不时还发出很奇怪的声音
飞机飞上飞下又一直摇动
很像过山车那感觉，心脏突然放空的感觉
我还记得有一下机的灯突然灭

后来听你说，bro们还在...
我就懂我想多了
你不可能来机场了

后来，我又想
难道你要想我生日那样？
给我surprise？然后像[第一次]那样，
有假的雪？ hahaa

后来又听你说，你电话没电
等下和他们这里那里
我又懂我想多了~

最后想象，难道你做了东西给我？
I means video or photo？
然后等下post？
圣诞节过了，我又想多了~

其实这几天很sad
尤其是24，25...........
我从小到大期待的日子
不要误会，不要生气
我没有怪你

只是纯粹想写今天的故事
我们的第一次圣诞节......

ps：幸好你刚call来，有了点warm，很多更sad的心情也没打了
1996 tight tight

our 1st Christmas ..... END

#stress

i feel that..
nowadays.. we are feeling stressful...

i realized that university life is not that free.. relax and freedom

suddenly miss the time on dec'2014 ^^
we are so free... so hea heheeee
over liao hahaaaa ><
but its a sweet life .. sweet memory ^^

remember we play paper scissor rock through facebook?
and remember you record ur play piano look..?
and i record my sing song look?

besides that, we still have UCSI memories><
a lot and a lot...
im still very confuse this ...
当初是什么让你那么有毅力从lrt走来UCSI?
又是什么让你那么有毅力让你从leisuremall走回家？
im really appreciate it... really....
every moment........

sometime i will suddenly feel regret that i change school..
hehee XD
dunno if i no change school.. what will happen?
is it possitive or negative?

wowww.. we really had a lot of memories ...
by the time... something had changed....
because we have to fight for future...
isnt?

just hope that all the promises we are still proving..
just hope that we can stay healthy until our life end..
love you you ....

we will have a bright future ^^
imagine it ? >< did you? ^^
1996 tight tight  <3

everything will be fine .. =)
dun worry Nana...... i will be ur rainbow ^^
i will always be with you  <3

sometime we 0145 each other..
just meet up and 1996 and tell what you want to tell...
( i just around you =* )
ok? can you promise me that again?
our 1st rule <3

babe Nana... 1996+ love you...
we should... no!! is MUST
we MUST 2 in 1...
im here with you =) 1996 tight tight ..... ^^

________________panda yan

ninth... 9th__________

a memory we had... another memory we had..

when group all memories we had..

become an uncountable memories we had <3

remember the video that i had addicted?

the video which i shared to you ? =)

i really love this video so much...

and i hope it will happen on us ^^

we knew how were us look when we get old..

because of the snapchat... XD

really hope when my hair turn to white..

my teeth are dropping?

or other thing happen in future...

the one who still holding my hand tightly ..

is YOU... ^^

the one who still make a lot of joke to make my laugh..

is YOU... <3

the one who cook for me.. take care of me..

is YOU... <3

and so on...........

just hope we will FOREVER ^^

that all you said.. you had promised...

you still can repeat again and again to me in future..

i means when we get old .... 

and you still remember ^^

tomorrow is our ninth month happiness ^^

and we plan to swim^^

hope everything will be fine 

and happiness.........

love u u NANA <3

1996 tight tight.............

even sometime i get mad on you..

(you know i know) hahaaaa

i means i want you to do something, but u noob...

so noob ahhh babe Nana... XD

im sry too babe... ill accept about that....

as i had promised you before...

however sometime i get mad...

then after only feel uncomfortable...

1996........... tight tight...

*blank suddenly* hahaaa><

actually only 1 sentence is important..

i means is the point...

"i love you babe.. ill trust on you! we will forever <3"

 muakssssssssssssssssssssss =*

___________________panda yan

10/30/15

     Not a happy day at night. Dada the first time cap my phone. Really really sad, i am shocked and stunned at that moment. Angry and sad. I know you are not happy too. your happy event become a fk event. And you want to say out to me. 
     
     U said you want to 坦白, but you know what, i am just 坦白, u say out ur situation, i teach you to change it to make this not happened again. that is why i always say out my opinion when you 诉苦. and that is y i always silent, cause you don like to heard my teach and i just want to 让一步. just want you say out all then done. maybe you think that i silent cause dulan, don want say anything, but if i said, would u hear? it will become a argument in major time. 
    
      Ya i know now. you will say is all ur wrong. but do you know what is ur wrong? u donno. cause is our both wrong. we didnt hear about each other. we always think that our decision are right.坦白，吵架；diam diam, 中diao. hehe. we didnt really hold back for once, i mean listen. 
     
      who donno you want eat supper after this event, who donno you didnot eat because of this event? i know that dada, i know. so today i didnt call you to eat diiner, cause i neither, but preparing to fetch you supper together. thats what i was planing. 

      is alright, just hope that everything will be fine, relax. i will try everything for you. donno what you think wat now, but it all just passed^.^ we still need to continue our life, our future.That is y we are still together. Cause we are born for us.

Love you forever<3

Letter for lover

Dada,

No matter what, we still are in ONE

We are forever together

Although we are chasing our dream, you wont feel that you are walk alone, Nana always here with you^.^

Move on together, move towards our destination, move until we dead =)

sometimes something bad happened in our relationship

sometimes we will have some argument

or sometimes maybe both of we are upset or angry to each other

but it does not mean that we still not love each other, right?

we have these emotion because care

we have these emotion because hope

we have these emotion because LOVE

Love you forever<3

0103

有时候会觉得，明明很靠近~
但感觉却好远.........................

time flyyyyyyyy

ya.. feeling that everything had changed a lot

honestly.. i really miss those moments that..

 you are still the angel..

remember? and those moments which i mean..

ermmmmm

hard to say out 1 by 1 actually..

what i can understand is that time we are still in holiday mood

but now.. we are chasing our dream

and fighting for our future =)

but i just want to say that

i really really really miss all those moment

as i know..

time is keep going

and it will not come back

it just keep going and go and go...

and those memories.

are always in our mind..

isnt?

we had a lot of arguments these days...

and its feel hurt...

sometime.. just hope we can 1996 

and it will be better

luckily.. touch wood..

we havent give up to each other =)

and it wont be .. isnt?

hope that..

we really FOREVER

and keep sweet 

without more time in argument

although everything had changed a lot..

a lot of memories cant replay anymore

or you are lazy to do something that you did it so much in past

all i want to say that

is i love you =)

as you always say it ..

we are FOREVER.. rite?

PROVE IT.. <3

___________panda yan

life..

today is my 1st day

i means in IMU

and the 2nd day staying in hostel..

the experience is so fresh for me..

and its really hard and not comfortable life actually..

ermmm just talk about some feeling of today..

thats why i ask you to wait for me 15 mins heheee

i want to say that.. today when the senior introduce the skul

i hope that we can same university..

but what i know.. is IMPOSSIBLE for us..

like UCSI before..

how the life will be when we same skul

thats why i always say about our TJ life..

if we can know each other earlier..  

back to the point

the introduce skul part..

keep imagining about that..

ok lah.. 1996..

we will live together and cant leave from each other?

0103..

these few days.. thx babe...

love you forever...

my future husband...........=)

_____________panda yan

surprise =)

babe so busy on his assignments these few days =(

well.. 1996 him and what can I do ?

only can cheer him up and motivate him to do the best ^^

plan to give him this surprise few days ago XD

and now ..... FINALLY ^^

_____________LOVE____________

DINNER NIGHT <3

15-8-2015 Sat =)

babe so noob and funny hahahahaa

bcaz he wears the shirt like waiter heheeee ><

and he keep blaming to me ..

caz i help him choose it ..

(not my fault ..ok?) XD

after dinner.. we go for supper..

taste gallery ><

(and im blogging at here right now .. taste galley heheee)

back to that day.. 

i want to say that finally we can enjoy the meal together at here

=)

after supper then back..

and its around 2am..

the 1st time we hang out until so late =/

i hope the person who hang out with me until so late back in the future

.. is you..

until our hair turn to white colour...

still hold each other tight ^^

maybe we still sweet like this ...

or we become very cool to each other.. =(

or maybe we have "tongak" and laugh at each other without teeth hehe

typing until here.. im laughing..

how about you ? ><

Remember what u had promised me yo..

MUST forever remember about all <3

________LOVELY NIGHT WE HAD ^^_______

another sweet day ..

aquarium day <3

venue: KLCC

date: 21-8-2015

we took lot of photos that day <3

but actually ..babe took lot of photos of me XD

really enjoy about that..

and this is my dream XD

i means we can collect lot of memories together 

and just for us..

not only that..

we wont be shy to each other..

like family ..and feeling comfortable to each other ^^

however.. the sad cases are my eyebrown .. pimples and my teeth =(

babe.. thx for everything ^^

i really love animals><

they are so adorable and special..

i hope that ... like we said that day..

next time we visit .. not only 2 person..

we will bring our children together ^^

 __________romantic screen__________

i hope that.. we will have many trips with each other in future..

and with our sweet smile ..

the most important is ..

we still loving each other ...

and damn sweet like now <3

thx babe..

ur every surprises..

im really care and remember them in my heart <3

FOREVER

and 20-8-2015

i wont forgot this day..

not only LEY..heheee

that day is a special day ..

and i really dunno about it..but u know it..

and u prepare a surprise for me ... 

although you are damn busy =(

thx alot my love..

and im tearing in the end =/

really touch about that babe..

thx babe.. our 2nd couple shirt ^^

(actually is 3rd XD)

and this draw.. heheeee

is cute.. 

THX FOR EVERYTHING MY LOVE..
i will open school and start my study life next week..
babe.. lets cheer together and fight for our future together^^
we can DO IT !!!!!
LOVE YOU FOREVER <3
1996+0209 MUAKSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
HOPE THIS POST CAN SURPRISE TO YOU..
AND MOTIVATE YOU ^^

_________________PANDA YAN